I'm a T(all)Girl

Hi,
Just a few words to introduce myself to you. I'm a Male to Female Preoperative Transgendered person. I am living full time, 7/24 as a woman. I am on hormones and I have accepted all the risks involved. Yes, Risks. First off, was the risks of losing. Losing Family, Losing my job. losing respect and the prestige fo being a white man. There is the risk of harm from other people. People that hate anyone different. Harm from otherwise God Loving Christians, who read the verses in Leveticus and forget Jesus' social justice teachings, They think not only are we sinners, but we should be sent to hell by killing us. Where's the love? They also would denie us the right to have relations with other people. After all, aren't they pushing for amendments across the country against so called, same sex marriges? There is also the Health risks from taking the Hormones. Deep Vein Thrombosis, Heart Attacks, Pulmonary Emboli, Strokes, Liver damage, Breast Cancer... Yes, Quiet risky wouldn't you say?
Why? Because I felt I had no choice. Yes, actually there was a couple of choices, but not very viable. One was to continue an agonizing life as a hollow shell of a man, that was always a facade that I had projected to try to protect myself, you see, I really was a coward all these years. Afraid to be myself. The other option, was suicide, That's not a good option. Hell of a choice eh? I chose to live, and not just live, but to really live my life the way I always knew deep in my heart and soul that I was supposed to be.
You see, I had a couple of flashes of reality, 1. A person cannot base all of his or her happiness on another person. If anything happens to that person, there is nothing left. and the Devastation would be unsurmountable. 2. People do not need anyone elses approval to be themselves. I crave the same level of acceptance I had before 'coming out', but I don't need permission to be me. 3. I felt the fingers of death brushing by me, time was starting to get short, I felt I must go ahead and do it before I was too old.
Too old? There are people in transition in their 6os, 70s and even 80s, But now is my time. I hope to be able to live equal time as a woman, that I was forced to be a man.
I'll write more later, after all, I've had several years of experiences to share, and I hope to have many more.